Sunday, March 02, 2008
*DISCLAIMER*
the following post may not make any sense whatsoever as it is being written when i am half asleep and waiting for my bladder to reach bursting point before i force myself out of my arm chair to pee and eventually to bed.
hall life is strange. its a struggle to maintain your sanity amongst the busyness of school work and the barrage of activities that you're "forced" to entertain, whether you like it or not, for the points that allow you to put yourself thru the whole damn process again.
but i guess, that's what i enjoy so much of hall life. =)
as a year 1, i didn't come for secc, i missed swoc cos i was "working" my ass of on the beaches of sentosa and ultimately was labelled the infamous "black ghost" by my SH peers and seniors. if first impressions are truly important, then "black ghost who i never see before but i heard run very fast..." - delfine ong (2005/2006) doesn't really help my image of Mr Hamsum*.
anyway, i just wanted to point out that its not what people perceive you to be before they know who you really are that matter, but who you really are when you eventually touch their lives that leaves the lasting impression. i was looking thru the blog and the pictures that we have and i realise that many of my friends whom i've grown quite close to are gonna leave in a month or so and i feel a deep sense of loss which can on be described as devastating.
pardon me for being emo but when you live with someone for an extended period of time, the bonds that you build with each other are almost super-glue strong. provided that your friendship is not tainted by the backstabbing and frontstabbing that goes with hall life. Yes. hall life is so political you can but we can give john, hillary and obama a run for their money if they come to stay in hall.
ahhhh the pains of society. cliques and all. exclusive, inclusive. who is a bitch/bastard. gossip sessions, first degrees, second degrees and what not. everyone is entitled to their own opinion. no doubt about that. however, if your opinion is based on what you hear from people and your own deductions without proof. does that entitle you to make a passing remark about something that you barely know?
let's have an example. my clique has often been labelled as exclusive. i've heard one too many "they always keep to themselves". "they dun bother to talk to us". lemme just say that that's utter bull-fucking-shit. people are close for a reason. cos they feel comfortable being in each other's company. yes, we're close. but we do not shun people if they talk to us. we're really nice people, if u look beyond the dao faces and vulgar language. although i do admit that it might be tad intimidating to try to talk to us as a group, but i'm sure you'll find that we're very approachable once you get to know us.
i've always prided myself that i can talk to most of the people in the block and i sincerely do attempt to do so, with the exception of a few. let me lay down the gauntlet here. if you think that you are more into the block than i am, then you are entitled to call me cliquish and exclusive. if you can prove that point to me, by all means do so. else, please keep your comments and such to yourself unless you can back it up with proof and evidence.
ahhh. that's off my chest. anyway, back to the point about politics and gossip. trust me, whatever you do in hall, people will know. people will find out. so don't do it if u don't want people to know. if you have a damn smelly fart, please fart discreetly. if you can't sing for nuts, please don't do it in the shower. if you've uncovered a deep dark secret, your hall mates are the best people to tell to "keep it a secret". let's face it. we're all curious idiots who can't keep our mouth shut. so in the future, think about what you wanna say before you say it. u never know what might happen. i've had my share of "close shaves" due to all these gossips in hall than the rest of my life added together.
in conclusion, my hall life has been a roller coaster of ups and downs. tears and cheers. from "black ghost" to vice chair to vice block head to year 3 moron who is turning back into black ghost. i've enjoyed all of it. i've made true friends here which i will cherish throughout my life. to those i've worked with, i hope i haven't been a total ass. to those that are leaving (graduating/not staying liao/ SEP/ NOC), i wish you all the best, may you be blessed with smiles and cheers wherever you may be. to those who will still be around, i hope you embrace your hall life like how i did mine. its not just a place in school where u sleep. its a place where you live. your second home. your second family.
*if u beg to differ, i'm gonna delete your comments anyway so why bother. =P
2:59 AM;
-be.♥.ed sEah
